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Title: To See Ourselves. A Domestic Comedy in Three Acts.
Author: Delafield, E. M.
   [Dashwood, Edme Elizabeth Monica, ne de la Pasture]
   (1890-1943)
Date of first performance: 1930
Date of first publication: 1931
Edition used as base for this ebook:
   London: Victor Gollancz, December 1932
   [Famous Plays of 1931]
   [seventh impression; first published August 1931]
Date first posted: 16 November 2011
Date last updated: 16 November 2011
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E. M. Delafield

TO SEE OURSELVES

_A Domestic Comedy in Three Acts_




Applications to perform this play must be
addressed to the author's agent, A. D. Peters,
4 & 5 Adam Street, Adelphi, London, W.C.2.
No performance can take place unless a licence
has been obtained.


COPYRIGHT IN U.S.A. 1931 BY E. M. DELAFIELD
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED




To
MARGARET RHONDDA




CHARACTERS


FREDDIE ALLERTON, owner of a paper-mill in South Devon.
CAROLINE ALLERTON, his wife.
JILL CHARTERIS, Caroline's sister.
OWEN LLEWELLYN, a visitor.
EMMA, the parlourmaid.


SCENES


ACT I

In Caroline's drawing-room.


ACT II

SCENE I: Caroline's drawing-room, forty minutes later.

SCENE II: Caroline's bedroom, that night.


ACT III

Caroline's drawing-room, three days later.

TIME: Early autumn, present day.




ACT I


SCENE: _The drawing-room of the Allertons' small country house
   in South Devon. It is a very conventional room, with typical
   chintz-covered furniture, photographs in silver frames on
   occasional tables, vases of flowers, bad water-colour pictures
   on the walls, and so on. At the back of the stage is a long
   window, giving on to a porch, two steps above the level of the
   garden outside. Right of the stage is the fireplace, with
   mantelpiece and mirror above. Left centre, a sofa. Left, the
   door. There is also a cabinet-gramophone and telephone table in
   the room, and a grandfather clock in one corner._

   _Curtain goes up in silence at half-past five on an autumn
   afternoon._ CAROLINE _is knitting on the sofa_, FREDDIE
   _reading in an armchair near the fire_. FREDDIE _is about
   forty-eight, inclining to baldness, also to stoutness. He gives
   a general impression of British phlegm, and is reading the
   "Morning Post." He wears the tweeds appropriate to a country
   gentleman at that time of year, and smokes a pipe._ CAROLINE
   _is some ten years younger than her husband, and does not make
   the most of her rather wistful prettiness. She wears the sloppy
   skirt and jumper of the English gentlewoman at home, and her
   hair is bobbed. She is knitting in a half-hearted fashion,
   looking across at her husband frequently. At last she speaks:_

CAROLINE: I'm not _sure_ I'm not starting a cold, Freddie. (_Pauses for
a reply which does not come._) But perhaps I'm not. (_Pause as before._)
Jill and Owen are late, aren't they? (_Pauses for a reply which does not
come._) I must say, I should have thought they would have been back by
this time. (_Similar pause, with same negative result._) I can't help
wondering if Jill is engaged to Owen. Or is that Victorian of me?
(_Pause, and silence, as before._) Of course, even ten years ago--in
_our_ day, Freddie--bringing a young man to spend a week with one's
relations, and motoring about with him all day long, _would_ have meant
an engagement, wouldn't it?

   [_Pause._ CAROLINE _raises her voice_.

_Wouldn't it_, Freddie?

FREDDIE (_without looking up from the "Morning Post"_): I daresay, dear.

CAROLINE: Or do you suppose that Jill and Owen are engaged and just
haven't said so?

FREDDIE (_as before_): No idea whatever.

CAROLINE: I suppose not. They're very late. They said they'd be back by
five.

   [_She gets up restlessly, goes to window and looks out, then
   moves across to the looking-glass and gazes at herself._

Freddie, I sometimes think I'll grow my hair again.

   [_Pause._ FREDDIE _reads on_.

Which do you think suits me best--long or like this?

FREDDIE: I don't know that I've ever thought about it, dear.

CAROLINE: It takes more than two years to grow properly, and the
intermediate stages are awful, of course. But I think I looked younger
when it was long.

   [_Pause. Silence._ CAROLINE _raises her voice_.

_Didn't_ I, Freddie?

FREDDIE (_without looking up from the "Morning Post"_): Perhaps you did,
dear.

CAROLINE: Don't you remember?

FREDDIE (_with sudden animation_): These Labour fellows ought to be
taken out and _shot_. What did you say, dear?

CAROLINE: It doesn't matter. (_Sits down again and resumes her
knitting._)

   [_A long pause._

(_Into the silence_) I wish I could hear of a housemaid. Even a
temporary. (_Pause._) But registry offices are all so hopeless
nowadays. (_Pause._) Anything in the paper, Freddie?

FREDDIE (_still reading_): Nothing whatever.

   [_Silence as before._

CAROLINE: Sometimes I wish we had a wireless. (_Pause._) Don't you think
a wireless set _would_ be rather nice, Freddie?

FREDDIE: I'm not keen.

CAROLINE: Why not?

FREDDIE: Oh, I don't know. For one thing, it rather puts a stop to
conversation, doesn't it?

CAROLINE (_ironically_): That _would_ be a pity, wouldn't it?

   [_After a momentary pause she repents of this, and cries out
   impulsively:_

Freddie, I'm sorry! I didn't really mean that.

FREDDIE: What? I'm sorry, dear, I'm afraid I wasn't paying attention.

CAROLINE: Weren't you? Are you worried about anything? What is it?

FREDDIE: Not worth talking about.

CAROLINE: Oh! Please tell me. Has something gone wrong at the mill?

FREDDIE: No, no. Not yet.

CAROLINE: Is it the new manager? I thought he was good.

FREDDIE: So he is. But it's bound to be a bit difficult, to get
Devonshire men used to having a Welsh manager.

CAROLINE: Perhaps there'll be a strike.

FREDDIE: Might be.

CAROLINE: What's happened--how far have things gone?

FREDDIE: The men have called a meeting for to-night. If there's real
trouble, Williams will ring me up.

CAROLINE: There's never been a strike at the mill yet, has there?

FREDDIE: Never. But with this dam' Labour Government, I suppose anything
might happen.

CAROLINE: A strike would be terribly serious, of course. One's heard of
such awful things--the men getting all worked up--and then completely
out of hand----

   [_As she works herself up with her own imaginings_, FREDDIE,

   _who at first has been looking at her, returns to his newspaper
   with a shrug_. CAROLINE, _her eyes dilating as she gazes on an
   imaginary scene that to her is real, goes on slowly speaking
   her thoughts aloud_.

It might lead to anything, of course--rioting--or lynching--many an
unpopular foreman has been thrown into his own furnace before
now----Fancy if the men came up _here_ one night!--the roar of an angry
mob outside----

   [_The hoot of a motor-horn sounds outside the window._

Oh, what's that!

FREDDIE (_matter of factly_): Jill and Owen, back at last, I suppose.

CAROLINE (_passing her hand over her eyes, as her visions are dispelled,
and she gets back to earth_): Oh, of course, Freddie! Owen is, too!

FREDDIE: Owen is what, dear?

CAROLINE: Welsh.

FREDDIE: Oh, yes! I suppose he is. You needn't say anything about this
mill trouble in front of them. They'll know quite soon enough.

CAROLINE: Then you do expect a strike? Oh, Freddie!

FREDDIE: Nothing to get excited about, yet.

CAROLINE: All right, I won't. But Jill would be thrilled----

FREDDIE: I've just said----

CAROLINE: I know, I know. I won't say a word. I wonder if they've had
tea. Anyway, it's too late now.

FREDDIE: I can ring for some more.

CAROLINE (_hastily_): Oh, please don't! I couldn't possibly ask Emma to
get tea all over again, at this hour. She's rather unsettled, as it is
. . . and, of course, we _are_ short-handed until I can get a housemaid.

   [_Enter_ JILL CHARTERIS. _She is a tall, pretty girl of six-or
   seven-and-twenty, her modern poise, as well as her very
   distinctive style of dress, in sharp contrast to_ CAROLINE'S
   _general diffidence and uncertainty_.

   OWEN, _as his name denotes, is Welsh--an intelligent, muscular
   young man of twenty-nine or so, quite evidently in love with_
   JILL.

JILL: Hello!

CAROLINE: Here you are at last.

JILL: Hello, Freddie.

FREDDIE: Hello, Jill.

CAROLINE: You've had tea, haven't you?

JILL: No. Oh, we don't want any. (_Calls off R._) You don't want any, do
you, Owen?

OWEN (_off R._): Any what?

JILL: Tea!

OWEN: No, thanks.

JILL (_throwing herself into_ FREDDIE'S _chair_): Lots of time to sit
and talk before we need dress for dinner!

FREDDIE (_stupefied_): Talk! But you and Caroline were talking all day
yesterday! _And_ after you went upstairs at night.

JILL (_carelessly_): I daresay. Women are like that.

   [_Enter_ OWEN.

OWEN: Hello, Caroline.

CAROLINE: Hello, Owen.

FREDDIE: Would you care to see the _Morning Post_?

JILL: Not a bit, thanks.

OWEN: I'll have a look at it later on, thanks.

FREDDIE: Then I think, perhaps, if you're all wanting
to--er--_talk_--I'll finish the paper in the study.

   [_Exit_ FREDDIE.

JILL: Our conversational powers are wasted on Freddie, I'm afraid.

OWEN: Mine aren't. We stayed down here talking about paper-making till
all hours last night.

CAROLINE: I know you did. It was past twelve o'clock when Freddie came
upstairs.

JILL: I suppose that's nearly unheard-of. Oh, Caroline! Do you mean that
every evening, all the year round, you and Freddie sit here for a couple
of hours after dinner, and Freddie goes to sleep over the paper, and you
sit and think about the servants, and the weekly books, and the
school-bills--and, on the stroke of ten, you go to bed?

CAROLINE: But when people live in the country all the year round, Jill,
things _are_ like that. Especially as they get older.

JILL: For some people, perhaps, but not for you, darling. You used to
have heaps of fun--I remember quite well--before I was grown-up.

CAROLINE: I know. But it's different, once one's married.

   [JILL _turns and looks at_ OWEN. _He speaks quickly, as though
   in answer to the look._

OWEN: It needn't be. I beg your pardon, Caroline. I'm afraid that sounds
like frightful cheek, but I wasn't speaking personally, of course, only
carrying on an old argument with Jill.

JILL: "Never explain and never apologise," some wise one said. Let's
all be thoroughly natural and honest for once, and say what we really
think, even if it _is_ uncivilised.

CAROLINE: Jill, darling, you don't realise----

JILL: It's all right--the children are at school, and the servants are
in the kitchen, and the Mothers' Union will never know. Let's _talk_.

CAROLINE (_breaking into a sudden, excited laugh_): All right! It's
simply marvellous to hear somebody say: "Let's talk"--and to know
they're going to do it.

JILL: I'm going to do it all right. I've been dying to.

OWEN: Shall I clear out? (_Rises._)

CAROLINE: } No. (_simultaneously_)
JILL:     } No. You've got to talk too.

   [CAROLINE _turns to_ OWEN. _Her manner is changing already. She
   is more interested, more animated--in a word, more alive._

CAROLINE: Oh, no, don't go.

JILL: Help me to encourage Caroline.

CAROLINE: I need encouraging--perhaps we all do. Why, all over this
country, middle-aged, middle-class couples are doing and saying, day in
and day out, just exactly what Freddie and I are doing and saying.

OWEN: Don't you ever get away--go up to London?

CAROLINE: Sometimes, when I _can't_ get a servant down here, I go up to
Mrs. Hunt's Registry Office. And, of course, there are the boys'
half-term holidays.

OWEN: But I mean for theatres, and concerts, and seeing your friends.

CAROLINE: Living down here, one gets out of touch with people, and
there's the question of expense, too.

JILL: But it would be so awfully good for you darling, to get away. It'd
shake you out of your rut, and make you take an interest in your
clothes, and your hair, and your appearance.

CAROLINE: But I do that now.

JILL: Oh. I didn't realise.

CAROLINE: I'd be almost ashamed to tell you what a lot of time I spend
wishing that everything was quite different--that _I_ was quite
different.

JILL: But why don't you _do_ something about it, instead of simply
letting yourself go?

CAROLINE: But even if I could afford to spend money, and time, and
trouble, over my looks, what on earth would be the use, down here?
There's nobody to see.

JILL: One more reason why you _must_ get away, as Owen says.

OWEN: It's rather cheek for me to say anything at all, I'm afraid. But
Jill's right. You ought to get lots more fun out of life while you're
still young. Why not go abroad?

CAROLINE: Freddie can't bear foreign cooking.

JILL: Go without him.

CAROLINE: Oh, you don't understand! It's so easy to say, "Go without
him"--but Freddie and I aren't a modern couple. He's late Victorian and
I'm early Edwardian. He still believes that husbands and wives go
everywhere together. Every summer we take the boys to the east coast.

JILL: And you do the housekeeping in rooms, instead of in your own home,
and Freddie grumbles because the landlady won't do any cooking at night.
I know! And you're both counting the hours till you can get home again.

CAROLINE: Don't, Jill----

JILL (_relentlessly_): And all the time you might be tramping in
Italy--or looking at the Alhambra by moonlight, far away in the south of
Spain.

OWEN: Ah! The Alhambra by moonlight!

JILL: Standing out against a dark Spanish sky.

CAROLINE: You forget the children. And do you think Freddie would really
care about the Alhambra by moonlight?

JILL: What _does_ he care about?

CAROLINE: Oh, the mill--and me and the children--and he likes his game
of golf.

JILL: I see.

CAROLINE (_defiantly_): After all, Freddie's people have lived here in
Devon, and owned the paper-mill, for generations. This kind of life is
in his blood. Owen, _you_ understand. I suppose your people have always
lived in Wales.

OWEN (_slowly_): Yes. My father had a bit of a struggle after the War,
but he keeps the place going somehow. There have always been Llewellyns
there.

CAROLINE: Let's hope there always will be.

OWEN: Well--I wonder.

JILL (_to_ CAROLINE): You know Owen's the only son? His father wants him
to give up the City and live at home now, and manage the property.

   [_As she speaks, her gaze turns away from_ CAROLINE _to_ OWEN,
   _and it is evident that it is to him that she is really
   addressing her remarks_.

So in ten years' time, I suppose, _he_'ll have settled into his rut,
too, with a wife and children--and probably golf will interest him a
good deal more than--the Alhambra by moonlight.

OWEN: Jill!

JILL (_defiantly_): I expect it's true.

OWEN: I've told you a hundred times----

JILL (_interrupting_): Oh, I know, I know. But domesticity, and the
English countryside, will be too strong for you, my dear. You'll get
just like Fr----(_Breaks off, and ends lamely_) Like anybody else.

OWEN (_too angry for coherence_): Everybody isn't exactly like--anybody
else.

JILL: That's what people always say, only they usually express it rather
better.

CAROLINE: Are you two quarrelling?

JILL: Probably. I always was quarrelsome. Don't you remember how you and
I used to squabble?

CAROLINE: Yes, I do!

JILL: Do you ever quarrel with anybody now, Caroline?

CAROLINE (_slowly_): Never. Not once--in ten years.

JILL: You poor darling.

OWEN: Do women enjoy quarrelling?

JILL: They don't like never having a chance of making it up
again--naturally. If more husbands understood that, there would be fewer
unsuccessful marriages.

OWEN (_mockingly_): "Gillian Isobel Charteris on Marriage."

JILL: It's only common sense to study a career before you decide whether
you're going to embark upon it or not. _I'm_ not going to be one of
those women who make a hobby of being unhappily married.

OWEN: No, _you_'ll go on being analytical, and modern, and open-minded,
and critical, till you're incapable of plain, honest-to-God happiness!

JILL: Happiness--yes. I suppose that _is_ what we're all after?

CAROLINE: I don't believe it's true that a happy marriage has no
history.

JILL: Much more likely that a happy history has no marriage.

OWEN: Horribly cheap, Jill.

JILL: Well, perhaps. But true, on the whole. Now take Caroline. If only
she could have an affair--(_the door-handle turns, and they all three
look round_)--with another man----

   [_The_ PARLOURMAID _enters_.

CAROLINE (_to_ JILL): _Attention. Pas maintenant!_--Yes, Emma?

EMMA: If you please, madam, the fish is here, and would like to speak to
you a moment.

CAROLINE: Oh, dear! Yes, I must go. (_To_ JILL) I am so sorry. (_Rising
and collecting knitting._)

JILL: Would you like to ask the fish in here--shall we clear out?

CAROLINE: No, no, of course not. I shan't be long.

   [_Exit_ CAROLINE.

OWEN: The fish--my God!

JILL: It's like that all the time. Put on the gramophone, and let's
dance.

   [OWEN _opens the gramophone and selects a record. This proves
   to be a slightly out-of-date fox-trot. They dance to it in
   silence for a moment or two._

Oh, I can't dance to that. It's as old as the hills, isn't it? (_Leaves_
OWEN _and goes and switches off gramophone_.)

OWEN: Dates right back from last year, I should think. They haven't got
anything new in dance records.

JILL: Why should they have? I can't see Caroline and Freddie jazzing
together through the long winter evenings, can you?

OWEN: Good God, no!

JILL: Caroline used to adore dancing. But she's let it go, like
everything else.

OWEN: Oh, my Jill! (_Kisses her._) What's been the matter with you all
day?

JILL (_sadly_): You know. I can't marry you, Owen.

OWEN: Haven't you _any_ courage?

JILL (_promptly_): No. Not after staying for a week with a
happily-married couple.

OWEN (_sitting on the sofa_, JILL _leaning her head against his arm_):
To begin with, you and I are not Freddie and Caroline. And, to go on
with, they're not exactly happily married, are they?

JILL: Yes, but they _are_, my dear! That's what's so devastating. At
least, Freddie is quite happily married, though I'll admit I'm not sure
that Caroline is.

OWEN: And I'm dam' sure she isn't. She knows it, too--anyway,
subconsciously.

JILL: Caroline's subconscious self must be rather interesting, from a
psycho-analytic point of view. She seems to me to have all the
repressions, and inhibitions, and things, of the people who grew up
before the War.

OWEN: Well, if it saved us from all that, then thank God for the War. No
one can say that you and I are bothered with repressions.

JILL: We haven't got repressions, but I think--I'm not certain, but I
_think_--I've got an inhibition somewhere.

OWEN (_concerned_): Not sex, darling?

JILL: Oh, _no_. Marriage.

OWEN: If you really cared, Jill, you wouldn't be afraid of marrying me.

JILL: Don't you see that it's just _because_ I really care that I won't
run the risk?

OWEN: What risk?

JILL: The risk that, in a year or two's time, we shan't--either of
us--want to go and look at the Alhambra by moonlight any more.

OWEN: If anyone but you had said that, I should call it rank
sentimentalism. Practically Victorian.

JILL: You know I'm not sentimental, Owen, _or_ Victorian. Though I'm
afraid I may be romantic--most women are.

OWEN: I see. Then if you won't marry me, will you be indefinitely
engaged to me?

JILL (_straightening herself and becoming flippant again_): That sounds
to me like an announcement of strictly dishonourable intentions.

OWEN: Well, you've turned down the alternative, haven't you?

JILL: My refusal was meant to include an engagement as well as a
wedding.

OWEN: What on earth is one to do with you? (_Pause._) Look here. You say
you can't face marriage and domestic life. But you agree with me that
you and I can't do without one another, don't you?

JILL: Yes, I do.

OWEN: Then there's only one thing for it.

JILL: No.

OWEN: Darling, you must.

JILL: Become your mistress? I don't think that's a terribly good idea.

OWEN: I was afraid perhaps you mightn't.

JILL: It might have been all very well for Freddie's generation,
perhaps. They always made their gestures so frightfully well: "Married
in the sight of all but God" didn't they call that sort of thing?--when
they did it themselves, I mean.

OWEN: I don't somehow think you're quoting correctly.

JILL: Perhaps not. But, anyway, if you and I did anything like that,
people would simply say we were trying to economise or something.
Besides, I always think it's rather a suburban way of doing things.

OWEN: Why suburban?

JILL: Well--neither one thing nor the other. And illicit relations
generally end in tears and suit-cases.

OWEN: Then if you won't marry me, and won't do the other thing--and
we're agreed we don't want to give one another up--what _are_ we going
to do?

JILL (_hopelessly_): I don't know.

OWEN: But, darling, before we came here you'd practically promised to be
engaged to me.

JILL: I know I had. But--(_gazing round the room_)--if _this_ is
marriage----

OWEN: Damn Freddie Allerton!

JILL: Freddie and Caroline are only an example of the average husband
and wife. I notice it more because Caroline happens to be my sister,
that's all. If she wasn't, I should simply take her for granted, as a
wife and mother always does get taken for granted by everyone--and most
of all by her husband.

OWEN: I don't think Caroline is the sort of person one takes for
granted, quite. She's intelligent, you know, and sensitive and
imaginative.

JILL: That's the tragedy of it. Owen, tell me something: could you ever,
possibly, have fallen in love with Caroline?

OWEN: Speaking--of course--quite impersonally?

JILL: Of course.

OWEN: In a modern, detached, and analytical spirit?

JILL: Quite.

OWEN: And assuming that either she belonged to my generation, or I to
hers?

JILL: Certainly, if you like.

OWEN: Well--then--I should say yes. Looking at it entirely as an
abstract question, you understand.

JILL: Entirely.

OWEN: But, of course, the possibility of falling in love is always
latent between every normally healthy man and woman. That's a biological
fact.

JILL: What an unpleasant thought! I know I shall remember that next time
someone begins to make love to me, and I'm feeling gratified about
it.--A biological fact!

OWEN: That's all. Just propinquity does it, as a rule.

JILL: You may fall in love with Caroline, if you like.

OWEN: Thanks very much.

JILL: I don't exactly mean _really_--but just a little bit, to take her
mind off the fish, and Freddie, and so on.

   [_Re-enter_ CAROLINE, _now in a rather passe black evening
   dress, obviously "every evening" wear, and out of date_.

Dressed already? Is it time? (_Rises, as does_ OWEN.)

CAROLINE: I went up when I'd done with the fish, so as to get back to
the fire. I'm starting a cold, I know. (_The gong sounds._) There's the
dressing gong now.

OWEN: Jill, I'll race you upstairs for the first bath before dinner.

   [_Exeunt_ OWEN _and_ JILL. JILL _snatches up her coat, bag,
   etc., as she goes_.

CAROLINE: Oh, I _hope_ the water's hot!

   [CAROLINE _calls out nervously_:

Oh--er--Emma! (_Louder_) Emma!

   [_Gong stops._

   _Enter_ EMMA.

EMMA: Yes, madam?

CAROLINE: Miss Jill and Mr. Llewellyn are having a bath--a--a bath
_each_--before dinner. Just ask cook to stoke up the fire a little, if
it isn't too much trouble, so as to make sure the water's hot.

EMMA: Very good, madam. (_Exit._)

   [CAROLINE _returns slowly into the middle of the room, and
   looks at herself in the mirror over the mantelpiece
   thoughtfully, shaking her head the while in dissatisfaction at
   her own appearance. As she turns away_, FREDDIE _comes in
   through the door. He goes up to the grandfather clock, looks at
   it, compares it with his watch, alters the latter, and prepares
   to go out again without a word._

CAROLINE: Freddie!

   [FREDDIE _looks round at her, surprised_.

Did you want me?

FREDDIE: No, dear, why should I?

   [FREDDIE _goes towards the door, with the obvious intention of
   departing_.

CAROLINE: Are you in a great hurry?

FREDDIE: It's just dressing-time, that's all.

CAROLINE: The gong's only just sounded. Freddie, do you know, I'm
practically certain that Owen _does_ want to marry Jill.

FREDDIE (_advancing slowly into the room_): I daresay.

CAROLINE: Anyway, he's in love with her.

FREDDIE (_pre-occupied_): Is he? (_He has taken out his pouch and is
preparing to fill his pipe._)

CAROLINE: He's terribly attractive. I expect Jill is too, to men.
Freddie--do _you_ feel it?

FREDDIE: Feel what?

CAROLINE: Jill's magnetism--sex appeal--whatever you like to call it.

FREDDIE: I really don't know what on earth you're talking about, dear.
How's your cold?

CAROLINE: It's coming on, I am afraid. Freddie, you like Owen, don't
you?

FREDDIE: He's all right.

CAROLINE: Not more than that?

FREDDIE: Men are not always thinking whether they _like_ people or not.

CAROLINE: I suppose not. After all, the question is whether Jill likes
him.

FREDDIE: Well, it's about time she settled down, isn't it?

CAROLINE: But that's just what she doesn't want to do! She says that,
once people have settled down, there's an end to--the Alhambra by
moonlight, and everything.

FREDDIE: To the _what_, dear?

CAROLINE: Seeing those two has made me rather foolish, that's all. Jill
seems so--so free and independent, to me. She hasn't got to worry about
servants, or housekeeping, or children, or anything. She can do anything
she pleases--even take a lover, if she wants to!

   [_This arrests_ FREDDIE _in the act of lighting his pipe_.

FREDDIE: Why not go and lie down for a bit before dinner?

CAROLINE: I'm all right. Freddie, do you remember when we were first
engaged?

FREDDIE (_taking this literally_): I think so. Some time in 1920--or was
it the year after?

CAROLINE: April 1920. I--I suppose I've changed a good deal since then?

FREDDIE: I suppose we've both of us grown a bit _older_, if it comes to
that.

CAROLINE: Do you still think me at _all_ pretty?

FREDDIE (_rising_): What on earth's the matter with you to-night, old
girl? I'm sure you're not feeling well.

CAROLINE: But _do_ you?

FREDDIE: I've never thought about it.

CAROLINE (_desperately_): Think about it now!

   [FREDDIE _turns to look at her, disapproval in his
   expression--and, indeed_, CAROLINE'S _tragic intensity is not
   calculated to excite admiration_.

FREDDIE: This is all great nonsense. You look just as nice as any other
woman--of your age, I mean. Though I must say I wish you'd keep your
hair tidier.

CAROLINE (_recklessly_): I'll grow it again!

FREDDIE: Oh, I shouldn't bother to do that. Now, dear, it's quite time
we went up to dress.

CAROLINE: But I am dressed.

FREDDIE: Why, so you are. I never noticed. Well, I must hurry.

CAROLINE (_springing up after him_): Freddie--I know you'll think me
idiotic--but--say you love me!

FREDDIE (_kind, but awkward, and slightly annoyed_): Shouldn't have
married you if I didn't, should I? (_He pats her face hurriedly_) There,
is that what you want?

CAROLINE (_dropping her hold of him_): Women want such unlikely
things--romance, and adventure, and excitement--but what's the use? I
know you care for me really, Freddie, even if you don't say a--a great
deal about it. You do, don't you?

FREDDIE: Yes, yes, dear; don't be silly. Surely I've got enough to worry
me, with a possible strike threatening, and this dam' Labour Government
in. You'll make me late for dinner. I don't know what's the matter with
you to-night.

CAROLINE: Nothing that hasn't been the matter for years, only you've
never noticed it. You--you don't take much notice of me anyway, do you,
Freddie?

FREDDIE: Why on earth _should_ I take any notice of you, dear? You're my
wife, aren't you?

CAROLINE: Yes, Freddie. That's what I want to make you understand. I
want to help you if there's a strike.

FREDDIE: I shall be late for dinner if you don't let me go now.
(_Exit._)

CAROLINE: But the strike! I might be able to say----

   [_She remains in thought. Her face changes. She remains
   thinking deeply in the middle of the stage for a moment or two,
   then hides her face in her hands. She is not, however, weeping,
   and, when she lifts her face, it is with a curious expression
   of histrionic determination. Moving very slowly, she goes to
   the back of the stage, places a chair in front of her, moving
   it about meticulously until it is exactly where she wants
   it--and places herself, in a carefully posed attitude, with one
   hand on the back of the chair. Her lips move, and with her free
   hand she gesticulates dramatically. It is obvious that she is
   making an inspiring speech to an imaginary audience. Gradually
   words and sentences emerge._

(_gaining in eloquence and fire as she proceeds_): What does a strike
mean . . . appeal . . . sense of fair play. Don't refuse to hear me
. . . I ask you to remember . . . and play the game! (_From this point
onwards_, CAROLINE _becomes frankly declamatory, using her hands freely
to emphasise her appeal with impassioned gestures_.) I've come down
amongst you because I don't believe you'll refuse to listen to _me_.
(_Here she pauses dramatically, and, when she resumes her speech, has
dropped her voice several tones lower._) I want you to tell me your
grievance, and let me put your point of view before your employer. Will
you trust me to do that? You all know me--I know you----

   [_In her ever-increasing eloquence_, CAROLINE _fails to notice
   that_ OWEN _has now returned, dressed for dinner, and is
   standing gazing at her in considerable astonishment_.

I look round me--and what do I see----

   [_She sees_ OWEN--_and breaks off dead. They stare at one
   another in a petrified silence._

I--I didn't--did you----? (_Trying to recover herself_) I was just----
(_Replaces chair._)

OWEN (_gently and kindly_): Yes--rather. I--I thought you were. That's
perfectly all right, Caroline. I understand.

CAROLINE (_covering her face with her hands_): Oh, how _stupid_ one is!

OWEN: Don't. I _do_ understand.

CAROLINE (_suddenly dropping her hands, and turning to face him with
real sincerity_): Oh, I _wonder_ if you do. Of course, I've made a fool
of myself. You heard me just now, I suppose--you must have thought I was
mad.

   [_She gazes at him._ OWEN _draws up a chair and sits down near
   her_.

OWEN (_gently_): Don't you suppose that most of us have done that kind
of thing at one time or another?

CAROLINE: Oh, yes. At _one_ time, perhaps. But not at another. I'll be
perfectly honest with you, Owen. I'm getting very near for--well,
I'm--I'm past thirty.

OWEN: We don't all grow up at the same age.

CAROLINE: Sometimes I wonder if women ever do grow up altogether. The
eternal schoolgirl is there, somehow--underneath everything
else--dramatising, and attitudinising. Oh, if you only knew the sort of
stories I sometimes make up to myself, even now!

OWEN (_gentle and interested_): Tell me.

CAROLINE (_as she goes on, speaking more to herself than to_ OWEN): A
woman wants romance, so much more than a man does--and she's so apt to
look for it in personal relations--and it's never there. Men don't do
that, do they?

OWEN: Not very often.

CAROLINE: Once, I was sitting out in the moonlight on a summer's evening
with--with a man. It was at a dance, and I remember that we could just
hear the music in the distance. I thought I was looking rather nice--it
was ten years ago--and I _felt_ him looking at me. And then, at last,
after a long silence, he spoke. He said: "What extraordinarily
interesting things _bulbs_ are!"

OWEN: What, in heaven's name, made you marry him after that?

CAROLINE: It wasn't after that. It was on our honeymoon. But I didn't
mean to say----

OWEN: No. I know you didn't.

CAROLINE: But you guessed. There are so few men who guess anything at
all, that one gets careless.

OWEN: I'm afraid you think men are extraordinarily dense.

CAROLINE: Well, I'm not really talking about men at all--only about
husbands.

OWEN: Are they so different?

CAROLINE: Quite. Men notice women's clothes--and send them flowers--and
sometimes make love to them. Husbands don't really notice one's there,
unless the bath water happens to be cold the meals unpunctual.

OWEN: I don't believe all husbands are like that.

CAROLINE: No. Men never do, until they're married.

OWEN: That's what Jill says.

   [_Re-enter_ JILL. _She has now changed into evening dress._

JILL: I had an awful fear I was late--knowing how Freddie hates
unpunctuality.

CAROLINE: Jill, what a heavenly frock! Come here.

   [JILL _comes up to her sister, and they analyse_ JILL'S
   _dress_.

Turn round. . . . Yes, I see--_that's_ the line at the back--and the new
waist. . . . Bright colours suit you.

JILL: They'd suit you, too. You're much too pale for black, if you don't
mind my saying so, darling. If you're going to wear black, you need lots
and lots of make-up.

CAROLINE: You know quite well I never use it.

JILL: Yes, I know.

CAROLINE: Freddie hates it. Besides, it takes so long to rub off at
bedtime, and he's always sleepy then.

JILL: Caroline, I'd like to take you to Paris for a month, and give you
a course of unlimited clothes, and lipsticks, and beauty-parlours, and
cocktails, and admirers.

OWEN: Hear, hear!

   [CAROLINE _looks round at him_.

Yes, my dear, I quite agree with Jill. You know, you've got an
inferiority complex. Now, if you simply went to Freddie and said----

   [_Enter_ FREDDIE, _in evening clothes_. OWEN'S _tone changes
   abruptly_.

FREDDIE: Dinner's late!

OWEN: Oh--er--hullo, old man!

FREDDIE: Why hasn't the gong rung? (_He goes to the bell, with the
evident intention of ringing it._)

CAROLINE: Oh, _don't_ ring! It's only just after eight, and you know
they're short-handed just now.

OWEN: Perhaps this clock's fast.

FREDDIE: Keeps perfectly good time. I'll wait two minutes more, and then
I shall ring and ask why dinner's not in. (_He takes up his stand in
front of the fire, watch in hand._)

CAROLINE (_in an agony_): Dear, _please_ don't. She's only a temporary
cook, and if she's offended she'll go--and Emma is so unsettled as it
is----

   [_Her voice dies away, as_ FREDDIE _holds up his hand, still
   watching the watch. They all fall silent, waiting nervously._

FREDDIE: One minute more----

JILL (_aside to_ OWEN): I shall scream, I know----

   [_Into the midst of this tense silence the telephone bell
   suddenly sounds, making them all start._ CAROLINE _springs to
   it, and takes up the receiver_.

CAROLINE: Yes--yes, it is. Oh--Mr. Williams--yes--he's here--one second.

   [_She hands the receiver to_ FREDDIE, _who takes her place_.

FREDDIE: Yes, is that you, Williams?

CAROLINE (_to_ JILL _agitatedly_): This means that the men at the
paper-mill are coming out on strike.

FREDDIE (_into the telephone_): I'd better come down? Yes, I see----

CAROLINE: It is a strike.

   [FREDDIE _signs for silence. As he does so, the gong in the
   hall sounds loudly._

FREDDIE (_into the telephone_): The men are . . . yes, I see. (_When the
gong starts_, FREDDIE _gesticulates wildly to_ OWEN _to go and stop it_.
OWEN _rushes to the door_.) Hullo, hullo, are you _there_? Don't cut me
off. (_He jerks the hook without avail._) _Are_ you there? (_Gong
stops._) Damn the thing! It seems to have gone dead all of a sudden.
(_Drops the receiver._)

CAROLINE: Perhaps they've cut the wire!

FREDDIE: Nonsense.

OWEN: What's happened, Freddie?

FREDDIE: My fool of a foreman has been working the men up--making them
drink, probably. Williams has lost his head. He says they're getting out
of hand--and _that's_ the moment the operator chooses to cut me off.
(_Slams down receiver and stamps across to fireplace._)

JILL: What's going to happen?

OWEN: Well, I should think Freddie and I had better go down to the mill,
and ring up the police on our way through the village.

CAROLINE: There's no telephone in the village, and the nearest police
station is five miles away.

OWEN: Good Lord! What a country!

JILL: Oh, Freddie, do let me play Paul Revere and make a dash with the
car. Or perhaps the house is surrounded--I _must_ see.

   [JILL _goes out on to the porch through the still uncurtained
   window_.

FREDDIE (_irritated_): Wait a minute--wait a minute.

   [_Enter_ EMMA.

EMMA: Dinner is served, madam.

CAROLINE: Dinner!

FREDDIE: You and Jill had much better go and have yours.

CAROLINE: No, of course we can't. Anything may be going to happen.

FREDDIE (_crossly_): Absolute rot, your getting yourselves all worked up
like this. What on earth does Jill think she's doing, dashing about like
a bluebottle?

OWEN: Upon my word, Freddie, that's rather an extraordinary thing to
say. She's perfectly right--you ought to get hold of the police. Why,
these fellows may do anything once they've got some drink in them. They
may come up here, and start rioting----

   [_A faint exclamation here breaks from_ EMMA, _whom they have
   all forgotten and who is listening in growing alarm_. CAROLINE
   _signs frantically to_ OWEN _to be quiet_.

CAROLINE: _Attention! Prenez garde! La femme de chambre!_--Oh, Emma, I
think dinner had better go back to the kitchen for the present. I'll
ring--I'll let you know when we're ready.

EMMA: Very good, madam. (_Exit._)

FREDDIE: Absurd--encouraging the servants to think unpunctuality doesn't
matter!

CAROLINE: But, Freddie, aren't you going down to find out what's
happening?

FREDDIE: Of course I am, but there's no such terrific hurry. I'm going
to have a drink first, and then try that telephone again. (_Moves
towards the bell._)

CAROLINE (_hurriedly_): You needn't ring--there's whisky and soda on the
dining-room sideboard.

FREDDIE: Oh, all right. Like a drink, Owen?

OWEN: Thanks, I think I will.

   [_Exit_ FREDDIE, _leaving the door open_. OWEN _makes to
   follow, but, noticing_ CAROLINE, _goes to her_.

It's all right, Caroline. Freddie'll get a move on directly. He just
wants time to--to realise what's happening, I expect.

CAROLINE: Yes, yes, that's it. And he does so hate anyone making a
fuss--especially me.

OWEN: A fuss! Why, you're being perfectly wonderful!

   [CAROLINE _gives him a sudden smile at this tribute, and they
   look at one another for a few seconds in silence_.

FREDDIE (_off_): Come on, Owen! (OWEN _exits_.)

   [CAROLINE _goes to mirror and is tidying her hair when_ JILL
   _reappears at the window_.

JILL: No excitement whatever, I'm sorry to say! Why--where are they?

CAROLINE: Only fetching whiskies and sodas from the dining-room.

JILL: It's funny, whenever there's a crisis, men always go and have a
drink, and women always go and look at themselves in the glass.

   [_Re-enter_ FREDDIE _and_ OWEN _with glasses_.

FREDDIE: Now, then, I'll try this telephone again.

   [_He goes to it and lifts receiver, with same negative result
   as before. During the ensuing agitated dialogue between_
   CAROLINE _and_ OWEN, FREDDIE _remains seated by the telephone,
   looking from one to the other of them with great disapproval_.

CAROLINE: Oh, what _is_ the good of that, when we know the wire's been
cut?

OWEN: I must say that wire-cutting looks as though someone meant
mischief.

FREDDIE: The line's probably out of order.

CAROLINE: No, no, I'm certain it's been cut. Freddie, how can you sit
there and do nothing?

FREDDIE (_goaded_): What on earth do you _want_ me to do, dear?

CAROLINE: Fetch the car! Go down to the mill! See the men
yourself--_talk_ to them!

FREDDIE: This everlasting talking----

JILL: Let me drive you to the mill, Freddie, and then push on and warn
the police.

CAROLINE: Yes, yes, and I'll come with you.

FREDDIE: Good God, no.

CAROLINE: Don't you want me, Freddie?

FREDDIE: Of course I don't, dear. You'd be horribly in the way.

JILL (_to_ CAROLINE): You said you were starting a cold. You'll only
make it worse if you go out. _I'll_ run Freddie down to the mill, and
then go on to the police station.

FREDDIE: We don't know that there's any need for the police at all, at
present. All this fussing . . . (_Rises._)

OWEN: Look here, let me----(_Opening door for_ JILL.)

JILL: No, no. You stay and protect Caroline. I'll just get my coat from
the hall.

   [_Exit_ JILL.

CAROLINE (_to_ FREDDIE): Freddie, if it's dangerous--I _want_ to come
with you.

FREDDIE: Please don't be tiresome, dear.

CAROLINE: But really----

FREDDIE: Tell them to keep some dinner, but don't wait for us, whatever
you do. I daresay we shan't be long.

   [_Re-enter_ JILL _in her motoring coat, and carrying_ FREDDIE'S
   _coat_.

JILL (_delighted_): Quite ready. Here's your coat! (_She helps_ FREDDIE
_into it_.)

OWEN: Look here, hadn't I better----?

JILL: No, you hadn't.

CAROLINE: Freddie, do let me go with you. I--I might be able to _say_
something to the men.

   [JILL _and_ FREDDIE _are by this time at the door, but at this_
   FREDDIE _turns round, showing real alarm for the first time_.

FREDDIE: "Say something to the men"! Upon my soul, Caroline, I am
certain you'd better go upstairs and lie down. You've been overwrought
the whole evening, dear. I've noticed it. "_Say something to the men!!_"

   [_Exit_ FREDDIE, _followed by_ JILL.

CAROLINE (_following_): But, Freddie----

   [CURTAIN goes down on her fruitless appeal.




ACT II


SCENE I: _Takes place in the drawing-room forty minutes later._

   CAROLINE _and_ OWEN _come into the room, having presumably just
   finished dinner_. CAROLINE _goes to the window and draws back
   the curtain, and looks out_. OWEN _tries the telephone without
   result_.

CAROLINE: If only one knew what was _happening_!

OWEN (_very nicely and kindly_): Do you know, that's the seventh time
you've said that since we sat down to dinner?

CAROLINE: Is it? I'm very sorry.

OWEN (_as before_): Not at all.

CAROLINE: I ought to have gone down to the mill, you know. (_With sudden
passion._) Freddie ought to have _let_ me go.

OWEN: What about that cold?

CAROLINE: It wasn't that. You know it wasn't. I don't suppose he even
knows that I _have_ a cold. It was just that he didn't want me there.

OWEN: He didn't want any of us there, if it comes to that, otherwise I
suppose I should have had to go, whereas I much prefer to spend the
evening here with you.

CAROLINE: That's very nice of you. I'm afraid I'm not a particularly
good companion, though. You see, I can't help being worried at the
thought of this wretched strike.

OWEN: Worried at the thought of missing it, you mean.

CAROLINE (_astonished_): No, I don't. (_With a change of tone_) Or do I?

OWEN: Oh, I think so. Beyond a doubt. If you don't mind my saying so.

CAROLINE (_slowly_): I don't think I mind at all. Does any woman ever
mind being talked to about herself?

OWEN: Some of them only like compliments. But I don't think that's what
you want, somehow. What you want, Caroline----(_He pauses, looking at_
EMMA, _who has just entered with coffee-tray_.)

   [CAROLINE _gazes back, her chin resting on her hand, entirely
   absorbed_.

CAROLINE: Go on. (OWEN'S _look makes her aware of_ EMMA'S _presence. In
an unnatural voice, making conversation for_ EMMA'S _benefit, she
continues_) It's really most extraordinary about the telephone. Of
course, one _does_ get a temporary block on the line sometimes.

OWEN: Oh, rather. Quite often, in fact.

CAROLINE: _Otherwise_, I daresay Freddie would have rung up to say how
things are going.

OWEN: I expect he would.

CAROLINE (_laughing artificially_): Not that I suppose they're at all
serious, really. Freddie'll just say a word or two . . .

OWEN: Yes. Not _more_, I shouldn't think.

   [_They watch_ EMMA _as she goes out, and relax again as the
   door closes behind her_.

Caroline, what do you _really_ want out of life?

CAROLINE (_with simplicity_): Not very much. Only just to be perfectly
happy. Always.

OWEN: And loved--and admired--and successful--I suppose?

CAROLINE: Am I as egotistical as all that? Perhaps I am.

OWEN: Most of us are, only we don't admit it. We only admit
that--somehow--it's all gone wrong, and our dreams aren't coming true.

CAROLINE: Do you feel that too?

OWEN: Sometimes.

CAROLINE: But _you_ can still make your life whatever you want it to be.
_You_ haven't----(_She breaks off, and is silent for a moment. Then
suddenly exclaims_) I'd give the world for someone to tell me that I
haven't made a muddle of everything!

OWEN: No. To tell you that you _have_ made a muddle of everything--and
that it doesn't matter a bit.

CAROLINE: Owen! I never knew you understood women so well.

OWEN: Perhaps you'd forgotten that I'm not an Englishman.

CAROLINE: Of course. You see, the average Englishman--well----

OWEN: Every Englishman is an average Englishman. It's a national
characteristic.

CAROLINE: Do you know, I feel to-night as though I'd gone back years and
years, and could cast off what Jill calls all my inhibitions. I think
it's the excitement about the strike.

OWEN: Even that is mostly imagination.

CAROLINE: You don't understand. When _I'm_ told that the men have called
a meeting and are getting out of hand, I see them rioting--wrecking the
mill--lynching the foreman--I see Freddie shot, and the house in flames.
In less than five minutes, I've taken my boys away from school, and am
settling down with them in Australia.

OWEN (_gravely_): I see.

CAROLINE: When I hear that one of the children has a cold, I--I
practically choose the hymns for the funeral on the spot.

OWEN: I shall never, never understand how you came to marry Freddie
Allerton.

CAROLINE (_startled_): Oh! I can't possibly discuss _that_ with you.

   [_Enter_ EMMA, _who collects the coffee-cups_. OWEN _and_
   CAROLINE _converse, as before, on artificial topics_.

I'm so glad the night's not wet for Jill's drive.

OWEN: It's turned colder though, hasn't it?

CAROLINE: Let's have a little window open, and see.

OWEN: Shall I----

   [_He draws back the curtain and opens the window. The wind
   outside flutters the curtains._

CAROLINE: It's certainly much colder.

   [_She comes and looks out beside him. They turn round to watch_
   EMMA'S _exit_. OWEN _draws the curtain again, and crosses to
   close the door. Then he picks up_ CAROLINE'S _wrap from settee
   and, going to her, pats it round her shoulders_.

OWEN: What possessed you to do that? You're shivering. You'll make your
cold much worse.

CAROLINE: It was rather foolish, I know, but I couldn't think of
anything else to say while Emma was in the room. I'm so _terrified_
she'll give notice, because of the strike or something. You don't know
what it's like to have the servants on one's mind day and night.

OWEN: I'm beginning to have some idea.

CAROLINE: You think I'm a fool, of course.

OWEN: You know I don't. I say, Caroline, I've got an inspiration.

CAROLINE: What?

OWEN: Let's sit down. It's always so much easier to talk sitting than
standing, don't you think?

   [_They return to the sofa._

Look here--just till the others come back--let's--play a kind of game.
Let's pretend there are no such things as servants--or houses--or
husbands--and that you're a completely unattached person
of--say--twenty-five years old.

CAROLINE (_hesitating_): Like Jill?

OWEN: Yes, if you like. Only, of course, you're not a bit like Jill
really.

CAROLINE: No, that's quite true. Jill's got a much better brain than
I've ever had--and perhaps less imagination.

OWEN: In some ways, Jill has a brain like a man's.

CAROLINE: A brain like a man's. Whenever a man says that to a woman he
thinks he's paying her a tremendous compliment. But go on about the game
we're going to play.

OWEN: We _are_ playing it, already. You're twenty-five--and I'm just
beginning to fall in love with you.

CAROLINE (_frightened_): Oh--no, Owen, not that.

OWEN: Oh, I think I should be. You know, we must pretend properly.

CAROLINE: You're in love with Jill.

OWEN: I haven't met Jill yet--in the game, I mean. Remember, we've gone
back some years.

CAROLINE (_slowly_): I don't think--I want to play this game.

OWEN (_gently_): Just for one evening, Caroline. You know, you like
pretending.

CAROLINE: I've always done it by myself before.

OWEN: So have I. Now we're going to do it together, that's all. I think
we've just got to the stage of feeling that there'll never be time to
say all the things we want to say to one another.

CAROLINE (_entering into the spirit of the thing at last_): We're past
telling one another that we must have met in a former life, though.

OWEN: Oh dear yes, that was quite early on. And we've compared our
favourite books, and agreed that there's an extraordinary mental
affinity between us.

CAROLINE: We talk about ourselves, of course?

OWEN: Naturally.

CAROLINE: Where shall we begin? There are so many things to be said.

OWEN: Actually, I think, only one. But, of course, there are a great
many different ways of saying it.

CAROLINE: Let's not go too quickly, if you don't mind.

OWEN: Oh, all right. Caroline, you're doing this perfectly. Tell
me--have you ever been in love?

CAROLINE: I've thought myself so.

OWEN: One does. Quite often, in fact. I wonder what it was like for the
men you thought yourself in love with, Caroline.

CAROLINE: Rather a trial, I'm afraid. I always expected so much too much
of them.

OWEN: You would, of course, being a romantic.

CAROLINE (_reminiscently_): I was always thinking of things that they
might say--or do--or write. Wonderful, beautiful things, that would make
heaven open for any woman. But, of course (_with a change of tone_), the
things never came true.

OWEN: And so you were disappointed. Always, Caroline?

CAROLINE: Always. It was my own fault.

OWEN: Only the penalty of living in your imagination. You see, most men
lack imagination.

CAROLINE: And yet if a man says the absolutely right thing to a woman
even once, at the absolutely right moment--he can do anything he likes
with her ever afterwards.

OWEN: That explains a good many affairs, doesn't it? But, you know, I
think you're making the mistake of judging all women by yourself.

CAROLINE: Aren't most of us very much alike?

OWEN: _You're_ different from any other woman I've ever known.

CAROLINE: Oh! That's exactly what I wanted you to say!

OWEN: Of course.

CAROLINE (_disconcerted_): Did you know I wanted you to say it?

OWEN: Naturally.

   [CAROLINE _does not know how to take this_.

CAROLINE: What?

OWEN: But, my dear, even though I did know you wanted me to say it, that
doesn't mean that it's any the less true.

CAROLINE: I shouldn't like you to say anything to me that wasn't true,
Owen.

OWEN (_after looking at her reproachfully for an instant_): Think again,
Caroline.

CAROLINE: Good heavens. . . . How dreadful. . . . Have I got to be as
honest as all that with you?

OWEN: I want you to let yourself be the real Caroline, that's all.

CAROLINE: It's such a very long while since I've been _that_--I've,
almost forgotten what the real Caroline is like.

OWEN: I could tell you.

CAROLINE: But I'm not sure that I want you to know me too well. If you
did, you mightn't like me so much.

OWEN: On the other hand, I might like you even better.

CAROLINE (_ironically_): Could a man pay any woman a greater compliment
than to know her as she really is--and like her just the same?

OWEN: No man knows any woman as she really is. The thing's impossible.
Any more than any man can ever make any woman really happy.

CAROLINE (_softly_): None of the others ever said that. It never seemed
to occur to them that there could be any doubt about it.

OWEN: Fools! But at least, Caroline, if I couldn't make you always
happy, I should notice it when you were unhappy.

CAROLINE (_looking at him, half dazed_): I--almost--believe that you
would, Owen.

   [OWEN _springs to his feet and takes her by both hands_.

OWEN (_excitedly_): After all, there comes a moment when it's--not so
easy to talk sitting down.

   [_He draws her to her feet. They look at one another then_ OWEN
   _slowly draws_ CAROLINE _into his arms, and, with a gesture of
   equal abandonment on either side, they kiss_. CAROLINE _is, of
   course, the first to return to earth, and draws away from him
   in dismay_.

CAROLINE: But--we can't--we mustn't----

OWEN (_watching her_): Are you angry?

CAROLINE: I don't know. I don't think I am. (_Turning_) But we're not
going to pretend any more, Owen. It's--a dangerous game.

OWEN (_moving to the fireplace_): Yes.

CAROLINE (_still agitated_): It's not fair, either, on Jill--or Freddie.

OWEN: If it hadn't been--for them--Caroline . . . ?

CAROLINE: Don't. What's the use?

OWEN: The only possible use would be if it gave you the courage to
rebel--before it's too late.

CAROLINE: Rebel? Against what?

OWEN (_taken aback_): Why--why, against the limitations of your
surroundings.

   [_A motor horn sounds outside._

CAROLINE: Hark! They're here! We're back in real life again. You asked
me if I was angry just now. I'm not. It was--just for a few minutes--the
schoolgirl's day-dream come true--that's all.

OWEN: Shall we call it--one glimpse of the Alhambra by moonlight?

CAROLINE: Yes. Yes. Let's call it that, Owen--and forget it. Promise me
that you'll forget it.

OWEN: Caroline----

CAROLINE: It was only a game--you said so yourself. It never happened at
all.

OWEN: Is that what you want?

CAROLINE: Yes.

OWEN: Then--you're going to accept the limitations of your surroundings?

CAROLINE: Don't you understand? It isn't the limitations of one's
surroundings that matter. It's one's own limitations.

   [_As she concludes the sentence_, JILL _enters_.

JILL: The strike's off. They've settled everything.

CAROLINE: Where's Freddie?

JILL: Just coming. He's putting away the car. Yes--it all fizzled out
from the moment I got to the police-station, and incidentally found out
on the way that your line is temporarily out of order, and will be all
right to-morrow.

CAROLINE: Then they hadn't cut the wire after all?

JILL: I'm afraid not. Life is full of anti-climax. Even the strike
wasn't really imminent. Your fellow-countryman, Owen--the Welsh
manager--got into a panic, that's all. Freddie settled things quite
nicely and quickly. Have you been dreadfully worried, Caroline darling,
thinking all kinds of things were happening?

CAROLINE: No--yes--I--I don't think so. I don't know----

JILL (_looking at her_): Oh--why--what's happened?

CAROLINE (_her face averted_): My cold is rather bad, I think. (_She
holds her handkerchief before her face._)

OWEN: I knew that window was a mistake. We had it open for a bit after
dinner.

CAROLINE (_seizing on this as a pretext_): Dinner! You haven't had any,
Jill. I'll go and see about it.

   [JILL _makes a protesting movement_.

It's no trouble. I asked Emma to have a tray ready. (OWEN _goes towards
the bell_.) No, really--I'd rather not ring.

   [_Exit_ CAROLINE.

JILL: What _have_ you been doing, Owen?

OWEN: Behaving like a cad, I rather think.

JILL (_reflectively_): One does sometimes. But I'm sorry, if it's been
at Caroline's expense.

OWEN: You're rather an understanding person, aren't you?

JILL: Only sensible. Shall we talk about it, or not?

OWEN: There's really frightfully little to talk about.

JILL: I know just what you mean. And I suppose propinquity, that you
were so eloquent about earlier in the evening, did it's usual work.

OWEN: That's about it. No--I'll be honest. There _was_ more to it than
that. Just for a moment.

JILL (_with sudden fire_): I'm glad to hear it! Caroline's worth the
real thing--even if it _is_ only for a moment.

OWEN: But, Jill----(_He stops, perplexed._)

JILL (_impatiently_): Well? Go on!

OWEN: Don't you--don't you mind?

JILL: Mind? Yes, I do. But you and I are real people, and so I can mind,
and understand, at one and the same time.

OWEN: Jill, you're wonderful!

JILL: I know I am. And, apart from that, it _was_ my idea that you might
take Caroline's mind off the fish.

OWEN: To be accurate, you said: Off the fish and Freddie. I do think I
succeeded in displacing the fish--but not Freddie.

JILL: I suppose not. Caroline's like that. I hope you haven't made
everything much worse than it was before.

OWEN: How?

JILL: Caroline's imagination is so much too strong for her. Supposing
she gets all worked up, and decides to tell Freddie that she's let
another man make love to her?

OWEN: But, my dear, she didn't, in any serious sense of the word.

JILL: I know, I know. But it's feeling that counts, with women like
Caroline--not fact.

OWEN: Choosing the hymns for the funeral.

JILL: Exactly. And I expect, by this time, she's been through the
Divorce Court, and Freddie has had his decree made absolute.

OWEN: I suppose you're right, as usual. Look here, hadn't I better go
and help Freddie put away the car or something?

JILL: It's extraordinary how little demand there is for the society of
those who are usually right.

OWEN: Jill, it isn't that----

JILL: I know it isn't. I'm sorry I'm being like this. I know it's
unreasonable, and unjust, and all the rest of it--but you've made me
cross.

OWEN: Then you do care?

JILL: Care! I rather think I hate you just at the moment.

   [_Enter_ FREDDIE, _more exhilarated than we have seen him yet,
   and rubbing his hands together with mingled cold and
   satisfaction_.

FREDDIE: Settled the whole thing! I told you there was nothing to panic
about. I suppose there's some dinner for us.

JILL: Caroline has gone to see about it.

FREDDIE: See about it! Haven't we got any servants in the house?
(_Crosses to the bell and rings it, then goes to warm himself at the
fire._) Extraordinary how chilly it's turned.

OWEN: Yes. I'm afraid it's made Caroline's cold worse.

FREDDIE (_to_ JILL): What about having dinner in here in front of the
fire?

JILL: Certainly.

   [_Enter_ EMMA.

EMMA: Did you ring, sir?

FREDDIE: Yes. Bring some soup or sandwiches--or whatever's ready--in
here, please, and--I say--bring that bottle of champagne out of the
wine-cooler, and four glasses.

EMMA: Very good, sir. (_Exit_ EMMA.)

FREDDIE: Must celebrate the occasion, eh?

OWEN (_to_ FREDDIE): Well--what happened?

FREDDIE: It was--but where's Caroline? I want her to hear this.

JILL: She went to tell the maids about supper.

FREDDIE: Running after the servants! What's the good of keeping a dog
and barking yourself?

JILL: She'll be here in a minute.

   [_Enter_ CAROLINE _and_ EMMA.

CAROLINE: Freddie, do you _really_ want dinner in here?

FREDDIE (_jocosely_): Shouldn't have ordered it if I didn't should I?

OWEN (_rising_): Can I help?

CAROLINE: No, no, we can manage.

JILL: _Must_ I help, is what I always say.

   [EMMA _and_ CAROLINE _complete the table preparations, and_
   FREDDIE _draws up his armchair_.

FREDDIE (_cheerfully_): Come along, Jill. It's all ready.

CAROLINE: You need not wait, Emma.

   [_Exit_ EMMA. _In the conversation that ensues_, FREDDIE _alone
   is exuberantly cheerful, not perceiving that the others are
   pre-occupied_; JILL _out of temper_, OWEN _uneasy, and_
   CAROLINE _extremely upset_.

FREDDIE: Upon my soul, I'm hungry--I expect you are too, Jill. Start
with some soup; that's right. Well, it really was a most extraordinary
thing--that fellow Williams absolutely had the wind up. Scared, that's
what he was. Simply scared stiff.

OWEN (_absently_): Was he really?

FREDDIE: Not a doubt about it. You remember my telling you, Caroline,
that it wasn't too easy to get Devonshire men to work under a Welsh
manager, don't you? (_To_ OWEN) I say, I beg your pardon.

OWEN: Oh, that's all right.

CAROLINE (_starting violently_): Yes--yes, of course I do.

FREDDIE (_shaking a forefinger impressively_): That was the _whole_
trouble. That and absolutely nothing else.

CAROLINE: Really--absolutely nothing else.

FREDDIE: Of course, the men didn't _say_ so. That's not their way at
all. But I spotted it directly, although they brought out some vamped-up
grievance about our having had to make a reduction on tonnage-rate.

   [_A silence. No one is attending._ JILL _realises this, and
   automatically repeats_ FREDDIE'S _last words_.

JILL: --a reduction on tonnage-rate--yes?

FREDDIE: As a matter of fact, that really only affects one or two of
them.

JILL: Oh! of course.

FREDDIE: I don't know what you mean by "Of course." But you're not
eating anything--take a sandwich. And we must have a drink all round to
celebrate the collapse of the strike. Ha-ha! (_He opens the champagne._)
Upon my soul, I don't know when I've heard of a more ridiculous storm in
a tea-cup. If you could have seen that ass Williams' face!

   [FREDDIE _laughs heartily. Gradually he perceives that his
   mirth is not being joined in by the others._

(_Puzzled_) Yes. I suppose, really, it doesn't seem quite so amusing
unless one knows the ins and outs of it as I do.

CAROLINE (_trying to atone_): Oh, but it does, Freddie. I--I can quite
see how funny it must have been--Williams getting into a panic--and--and
you going to talk to the men and--and everything.

OWEN (_with pseudo-heartiness_): Rather!

FREDDIE (_drinking his champagne_): Well, here's to the strike! And may
all our troubles disperse as easily!

JILL (_looking at_ OWEN): May all our troubles disperse as easily!

OWEN (_hastily_): Tell us what you said to the men, Freddie.

FREDDIE: Well, I started in about the tonnage, rate question, of course.
Williams was under the impression that they felt strongly about it,
because up to now we've been having a bonus on tonnage-rate. As a matter
of fact, the men are really getting very high pay, without a sufficient
increase in production. The tonnage-rate was badly calculated. I don't
know if you see what I mean? (_Turning to_ OWEN.)

   [_A silence. None of the other three has been attending._

Eh?

OWEN (_starting_): What?--Of course--yes.

   [FREDDIE _stares at him, then turns and looks at_ JILL, _who
   also starts_.

JILL: No, naturally not. I mean--I quite agree with you, Freddie.

CAROLINE: So do I.

FREDDIE (_stiffly_): There isn't anything to _dis_agree about, exactly.
Well----

CAROLINE: No, no, _do_ go on. Go on talking, Freddie.

FREDDIE: Talking isn't very much in my line, is it? And I must say
Caroline, you don't seem to me to pay very much attention when I _do_
speak.

CAROLINE: But I am----(_Her voice falters, and she puts her
handkerchief to her face._) It's only my cold.

FREDDIE: You'd better go to bed, I should think.

CAROLINE: No, no. You haven't nearly told us about the strike yet.

FREDDIE: I've been telling you for the last quarter of an hour, only
you've not been listening.

OWEN: I'm afraid it's my fault.

   [CAROLINE _starts, and looks round at him_.

That open window--it's made your cold much worse, I can see.

CAROLINE: I'm afraid it has. (_She sneezes._)

JILL: Try Vapex, darling. (_Starts to rise, but promptly subsides again
when_ OWEN _moves_.)

OWEN (_starting up_): Can I fetch it? Perhaps Jill could--could show me
where it is.

JILL (_not moving_): It's on the top of the medicine-chest in the
bathroom, where you can't possibly miss it.

CAROLINE: No, please don't bother. I shall be going up to bed directly.

JILL: Yes, so shall I. I need sleep, after all this excitement.

OWEN: Jill, don't go up yet. It's our last evening here.

FREDDIE: By Jove, so it is! I say, Owen, you remember what I was telling
you last night. Come and sit down.

   [FREDDIE _leans back, crossing his legs comfortably, and begins
   to speak. His voice goes on, whilst_ OWEN _sits with his eyes
   fixed on_ JILL, _who remains motionless, her thoughts obviously
   elsewhere, and_ CAROLINE _gazes haggardly at her husband and
   stifles yet another sneeze with her handkerchief_. FREDDIE
   _takes final gulp of champagne and begins_:

The fact of the matter is that the whole business of paper-making, so
far as we are concerned, turns on the demand for high-grade paper.

   [CAROLINE _sneezes loudly_. FREDDIE _stares at her, and
   continues_:

Now, take the case of a really high-grade opaque paper. There is
practically no demand for it at all nowadays. And that's hit us
particularly hard. High-grade paper has been our speciality for years.
We used to be able to count on a big Government contract for envelopes
alone that kept the mills busy. The men know that perfectly well. They
realise that it's all we can do to keep going, now that such a lot of
cheap, inferior paper is being used. So, as I pointed out to them, to
talk about the reduction on tonnage-rate is simply nonsense . . .

   [CAROLINE _suddenly blows her nose loudly_. FREDDIE _sits up
   and stares at her resentfully_.


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AND
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SCENE II

SCENE II _takes place in_ CAROLINE'S _bedroom an hour later. It
   is furnished exactly as you would expect it to be furnished:
   that is to say, there is a large double bed, an unsophisticated
   washstand, the usual chairs and tables, several photographs in
   frames, and a dressing-table, before which_ CAROLINE, _in a
   reasonably, but not extravagantly, becoming dressing-gown, is
   now seated_.

   _There are two doors. One of these obviously leads to_
   FREDDIE'S _dressing-room, as he keeps on walking in and out of
   it, each time in a further stage of preparedness for bed.
   Throughout the scene that follows,_ CAROLINE, _whether speaking
   herself or listening to_ FREDDIE, _is automatically going
   through a series of actions that are evidently habitual to her:
   i.e. brushing her hair, greasing her face and wiping it with a
   sheet of tissue paper that afterwards goes into the waste-paper
   basket, cold-creaming her hands and neck, rubbing something
   from a little jar into her face, turning her stockings inside
   out and hanging them over the back of a chair, and so on. At
   intervals she sneezes. As the curtain goes up_, FREDDIE _is
   standing in the communicating doorway without his
   dinner-jacket, and_ CAROLINE _is sitting at the
   dressing-table_.

FREDDIE: Have you tried the Vapex?

CAROLINE: I've sprinkled some on the pillow.

   [_They both glance at the bed._

Do you want some on your side too?

FREDDIE: Might be as well, I suppose.

   [_Disappears into dressing-room._

   CAROLINE _sprinkles the Vapex, then returns to dressing-table
   and sits motionless_.

(_Calls from within_) You know, that little car of Jill's wasn't running
properly to-night. I rather think she's missing on one cylinder.

CAROLINE: Is she?

FREDDIE: She's got a long run ahead of her. (_Reappears in doorway._)
They ought to test the sparking-plug first thing to-morrow. There'll be
plenty of time.

CAROLINE (_tonelessly_): Yes, I suppose so.

FREDDIE: Well, let's see. Supposing they average thirty--or let's say
twenty-five, to be on the safe side. (_Pulling dress shirt off over his
head._) That means that if they leave here at ten o'clock they ought to
be at Honiton by twelve, then Yeovil at about one--allow an hour, say,
for lunch--they get off again at two sharp, and reach London, bar
accidents, at seven o'clock. Say seven-thirty, if you like.

CAROLINE (_desperately_): Yes, yes, I _see_.

FREDDIE (_after surveying her for a moment in astonished silence_): Is
anything the matter with you? Besides your cold, I mean.

CAROLINE (_desperately_): Everything is the matter with me.

FREDDIE: Don't exaggerate, dear.

   [_He returns to the dressing-room._ CAROLINE _stares haggardly
   after him_.

CAROLINE (_calling_): Freddie! (_Louder_) Freddie!

FREDDIE (_reappearing with pyjamas in one hand and shirt in the other_):
What?

CAROLINE: Freddie, do you think that you--you understand me?

FREDDIE: You didn't call me in just to hear that, did you? Upon my soul,
Caroline, you're a bit unreasonable sometimes.

CAROLINE: Yes, I daresay I am. One doesn't go on being reasonable for
ever.

   [FREDDIE _gradually backs into the dressing-room once more as
   she goes on speaking_.

(_Staring at herself in the glass and not perceiving_ FREDDIE'S
_withdrawal_) I wonder what you'd say if the day came when I found that
I just couldn't go on any longer. For years and years I've pretended to
myself that I was quite contented, and that one didn't need, or expect,
any kind of emotional life after one had passed thirty--and that to be
your wife, and the boys' mother, was enough. Part of me has been
dead--stifled, and pushed out of sight. I don't even think about it any
more . . . and then . . . one . . . one reads something, or--or meets
someone--and all of a sudden one knows. Life _oughtn't_ to be like
this--it isn't enough!

   [_As_ CAROLINE _ends, on an emotional crescendo, she flings her
   arms out on the dressing-table, and hides her face against
   them. There is a moment's silence. Then_ FREDDIE, _now in
   pyjamas, appears at the door_.

FREDDIE: Look here, dear, where the devil is that tube of Kolynos?

   [_He goes to the washstand, hunts about on the shelf there for
   the Kolynos, and continues plaintively_:

_Must_ you keep on moving it in here? It's surely simply a question of
remembering to get one of your own.

CAROLINE (_tensely_): I want to speak to you.

FREDDIE: If it's about the Kolynos, all I can say is----

CAROLINE: It isn't about the Kolynos.

FREDDIE (_in tones of great relief_): Here it is at last!

   [_He is once more returning into the dressing-room, but_
   CAROLINE _moves between him and the door_.

CAROLINE: Such a little thing can suddenly change the whole world--make
everything look different--and yet one's really _known_ all the time.
This evening--I woke up.

FREDDIE: I didn't even know you'd been to sleep, but I daresay it was a
very good thing. Now look here, dear, I really do wish you'd get into
bed.

CAROLINE (_unheeding_): Supposing, Freddie, that I fell in love?

FREDDIE (_arrested_): That you _what_, dear?

CAROLINE: Fell in love. Women _do_. Even (_bitterly_) happily married
women.

FREDDIE (_simply_): Not in our class, they don't, dear.

CAROLINE: Or supposing somebody fell in love with me?

FREDDIE: How could anybody fall in love with you when there isn't a soul
about the place except the rector, who's turned seventy, and an
occasional feller for tennis that one knows all about? It seems to me
that you're talking nonsense, Caroline.

CAROLINE: What would you do if I said that I--I'd fallen in love?

FREDDIE: Don't be foolish, dear.

CAROLINE: Answer me.

FREDDIE: How can I answer a silly question like that? It's ridiculous.
Besides, you'll make your cold worse, standing about.

CAROLINE: Never mind that. I want to know what you'd say--what you'd
do--if I came and told you that I--I'd let another man make love to me?

FREDDIE (_reluctantly_): Naturally, I should do what any other decent
man in that position would do--kick the fellow out of the house and tell
him to go to hell.

CAROLINE: Would that help?

FREDDIE: What's that got to do with it?

CAROLINE: And what about me?

FREDDIE (_uncomprehending_): How do you mean, what about you?

CAROLINE: Should you forgive me?

FREDDIE: Well--I suppose that depends how far----But we needn't discuss
it.

CAROLINE: You wouldn't want to give me my freedom?

FREDDIE: D'you mean a divorce?

   [CAROLINE _nods._

(_With determination_) Look here, Caroline, if this is some of Jill's
nonsense, I don't want any more of it. She's got this newspaper work of
hers in London, and no doubt she mixes with some very queer people
there, and hears a lot of this up-to-date jargon--but that's no reason
why you should imitate her. You've got to remember that you're a wife
and a mother. Besides, Jill's ten years younger than you are.

CAROLINE: Ten years younger than I am. Yes.

FREDDIE: And now, dear, we really must----

CAROLINE (_unheeding_): Ten years younger. That's a whole lifetime,
isn't it?

FREDDIE (_annoyed_): It's not a lifetime at all. Ten years--is ten
years.

CAROLINE: It's a lifetime to a woman, all the same. (_With a sudden
gesture of despair_) Oh, you needn't be afraid, Freddie. I shan't ever
come and tell you that another man has been making love to me.

FREDDIE: I should hope not.

CAROLINE: If--if it ever did happen, it would only be a pretence.
Just--a kind of game. Not worth remembering or--or ever thinking about
again.

   [_At the ring of despair in her voice_, FREDDIE _looks at her
   uneasily_.

FREDDIE: Anybody would suppose you _wanted_ it to happen.

CAROLINE: Would they?

   [_She begins to laugh hysterically, whilst_ FREDDIE _stares at
   her in solemn perplexity_.

It's all right--I--I--oh, Freddie, _don't_ look at me like that!

FREDDIE: I'm certain you're not well. Do you think you've got a
temperature?

CAROLINE: I don't know. I don't know what's the matter with me.

   [_She hides her face in her hands._

FREDDIE (_alarmed_): Where's the thermometer?

   [_Hunting about on washstand and in drawer._

It is a most extraordinary thing that in this house nothing is ever to
be found in its proper place. Now, I could have sworn that the last time
I saw that thermometer----

CAROLINE (_at the end of her endurance_): Never mind--oh, never _mind_.

FREDDIE: But I do mind. It's got to be found. The thing must be
_somewhere_, you know. (_Goes into dressing-room._)

CAROLINE (_in desperation_): Jill has a thermometer.

FREDDIE (_off_): Has she? Well, I think I ought to go and borrow it. I'm
certain you're starting 'flu.

   [_Enters, putting on dressing-gown, which catches in door. He
   says "Damn" and jerks it free._

I'll go and ask her for it now.

CAROLINE: Yes, yes--go.

   [_Exit_ FREDDIE. CAROLINE _springs up, locks the door, and
   stands, her hands tightly wrung together_.

I can't go on--I can't. Owen--Owen--why didn't you really mean it? Oh,
if only there was someone--anyone--to understand . . .

   [_She pushes back the hair from her forehead with a gesture of
   despair, looking all round her. Her eyes fall on one of the
   many photographs of her children on the wall._

(_In a voice gradually strangled with the sobs she is repressing_) Some
women . . . haven't even got children. I--I've got the two boys. . . .
It's their lives that matter. Mine's over . . . I--I'm not going to mind
any more. . . .

   [_There is a knock at the door, and the handle turns._

(_Distraught_) What is it? Oh, what _is_ it?

FREDDIE (_outside_): I'll go round by the other door.

   [CAROLINE _looks wildly round her, then drops on her knees by
   the bed, her face hidden_.

CAROLINE: I can't go on--I can't go on----

   [FREDDIE _enters, shaking the thermometer vigorously. He
   suddenly perceives_ CAROLINE.

FREDDIE: I say, dear--is anything the matter?


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ACT III


_Takes place in the Allertons' drawing-room three days later._

   _The curtain goes up and shows the drawing-room as in Act I.,
   except that instead of evening it is now morning, three days
   later._

   _Enter_ FREDDIE, _in his favourite tweeds_--JILL _enters first
   and holds the door for_ FREDDIE--_carrying a couple of
   suit-cases, which he deposits by the window_. JILL _wears a
   morning frock suitable for travelling, and carries a leather
   motor-coat, cap, and bag en suite_.

FREDDIE: Is that the lot?

JILL: Yes, thanks.

FREDDIE: What about Owen's bag?

JILL: I expect he's taken it out to the car himself. Don't bother about
him.

FREDDIE: That's all right. It's only that Caroline seems to think Emma's
been a bit overworked lately, what with our having no housemaid, and
Caroline's having been laid up, and everything.

JILL: I know. And I'm afraid our staying on has made more work, too, but
we've tried to help--and I had to make sure Caroline was really all
right.

FREDDIE: By Jove, yes. That was a very nasty chill she caught.

JILL: If she hadn't collapsed with a chill, she'd have had a bad nervous
breakdown. In fact, as it was----

FREDDIE: Now, now, now, what's the good of saying a thing like that?
Caroline was upset, I know. She'd worked herself up about the strike.

JILL: The strike! I suppose it was a great relief to you, Freddie, that
the strike fizzled out before it had begun?

FREDDIE: Of course it was. What do you suppose?

JILL: Men never seem to mind an anti-climax. Now _I_ shall never forget
how exciting that evening was, when we all thought they might come up
and mob us at any minute.

FREDDIE (_indignantly_): I never thought anything of the kind.

JILL: Not even when Williams telephoned?

FREDDIE: Certainly not! The fellow lost his head. He isn't English; he's
Welsh. I knew very well that was all it was. If you remember, I said so
at the time.

JILL: I believe you did.

FREDDIE: I say--I'm sorry, Jill; I quite forgot.

JILL: What?

FREDDIE: Your friend--Owen--Welsh!

JILL: Oh, that's all right.

FREDDIE: Honestly, I always look upon him as being as English as I am
myself--practically.

JILL: Thanks, Freddie.

FREDDIE: Not at all. I expect he'd like some help with the car.

JILL: Please don't go. I want to talk to you.

FREDDIE: Talk?

JILL: About Caroline.

FREDDIE: Caroline? Oh--Caroline. Well, I'm thankful to say she's quite
herself again now.

JILL: That's just what's worrying me.

FREDDIE (_after an astonished pause_): What did you say?

JILL: I said: That's just what's worrying me.

FREDDIE: I'm afraid I don't understand.

JILL: I know you don't, Freddie. But I want to try and make you
understand.

FREDDIE: Will it take long?

JILL: I don't know. That rather depends on you, doesn't it? Freddie, you
remember the other night, before the doctor came, when Caroline's
temperature went up and up, and we didn't quite know how bad she might
be?

FREDDIE: Yes, I remember.

JILL: Could you tell me exactly what thoughts went through your mind as
we sat there almost helpless, waiting for him?

FREDDIE (_outraged_): No, of course I couldn't. And I wouldn't if I
could, what's more.

JILL: Because you don't want to admit that what you felt was a perfectly
genuine, honest emotion.

FREDDIE: Upon my word, Jill, really----

JILL: I'm sorry, but I simply must. For Caroline's sake.

FREDDIE: Caroline never suggested this nonsense.

JILL: Of course she didn't. But do you suppose I haven't seen for myself
that she's unhappy?

FREDDIE (_astounded_): Unhappy?

JILL: Do _you_ think she's happy?

FREDDIE: I've never thought about it.

JILL: The husband's slogan. Think about it, then, Freddie, before it's
too late.

FREDDIE: Too late for what?

JILL: Too late for everything--for the Alhambra by moonlight, if you
like to put it that way.

FREDDIE: But I _don't_ like to put it that way! I don't even know what
you're talking about.

JILL: I'm sorry. May I try and explain?

FREDDIE (_reluctantly_): If you really feel you must.

JILL: I do. Look here! Caroline is the type of woman to whom personal
relationships mean everything. She can't help it.

FREDDIE (_helplessly_): No one likes a--a feminine woman better than I
do myself.

JILL: That's lucky. But have you ever told her so?

FREDDIE: What on earth are you driving at? A joke's a joke, but
really----

JILL: I never felt less like joking in my life. Why don't you _tell_
Caroline that you think she's a feminine woman--that you admire feminine
women--that you love her--that you think she runs the house
beautifully----

FREDDIE (_interrupting_): But I don't think she does. Not always.

JILL: What does that matter? She won't care what you _think_--only what
you _say_.

FREDDIE (_bewildered_): But she'd be a fool if she felt that, and
Caroline's not a fool.

JILL: _Tell_ her you think she isn't a fool! Not in those words,
naturally--you can say you find that companionship with her has spoilt
every other woman for you.

FREDDIE: How on earth do you think of speeches like that?

JILL: Oh, if men only realised the admirable speeches that women are
making for them almost every hour of their lives!

FREDDIE: The fact is, women haven't got enough to think about, that's
their trouble.

JILL: And so they think about men? I quite agree with you, but it
doesn't apply to my generation. Thank heaven, we have jobs now, and
choose them ourselves.

FREDDIE: Caroline's work--which is the highest to which a woman can be
called--is to be a wife and mother.

JILL: Yes, poor darling. But, then, the choice of a career was awfully
limited in her day, wasn't it? However, it's no good crying over spilt
milk now----

FREDDIE: Spilt milk?

JILL: --the point is, you and Caroline have got a wonderful opportunity
of starting fresh. The strike, and her illness, and everything that's
happened, will all help to create the right atmosphere.

FREDDIE: What atmosphere? Why?

JILL: An exciting, romantic, stimulating sort of atmosphere. It'll make
it so much easier for you to begin _saying_ things to Caroline.

FREDDIE: I'm afraid I'm not very good at--er--_saying_ a very great
deal.

JILL: I've noticed that.

FREDDIE: If you'll forgive my mentioning it, I'm afraid one looks upon
all this putting-things-into-words as being rather bad form.

JILL: Our Public Schools have a lot to answer for. Well, of course, I
know it's all rather difficult for you. Perhaps you'd better not begin
by _saying_ a great deal. There are lots of little things you can _do_.

FREDDIE: But I'm always doing little things.

JILL: Are you?

FREDDIE: Yes! Why, only yesterday I spent twenty minutes putting a new
washer on the bathroom tap.

JILL: I see! I suppose you never give Caroline flowers?

FREDDIE: Flowers? The garden's full of them.

JILL: I said _give_ them to her.

FREDDIE: Wouldn't that be a bit pointless, when she can pick as many as
she wants for herself?

JILL (_impatiently_): Well, well, she can't _now_, anyway. She hasn't
been out of her room for three days. You could have some ready to
welcome her when she comes down this morning for the first time.

FREDDIE (_looking round him_): Emma put fresh ones in here only
yesterday.

JILL: Hush! She's coming down now. Never mind Emma's. Go and pick some
for her _yourself_, and bring them in to her. Quickly!

FREDDIE (_bewildered_): But----

JILL: Oh, do _go_!

   [_She hustles him out at the window as_ CAROLINE _comes in at
   the door carrying her knitting_. CAROLINE _is pale, and moves
   slowly_. JILL _goes to meet her, and settles her on the sofa_.

Darling, do you feel shaky? Shall I close the window?

CAROLINE: No, thank you, dear.

JILL: Are you sure you ought to have come down?

CAROLINE: Quite sure. I am so glad to be out of my room. (_She looks
round her._) I feel rather as if I had been dead and haven't quite come
to life again. It is absurd, really, when I was only ill such a very
little while. It seems ages since I was last in this room.

JILL: That was the night that Freddie and I went down to the mill.

CAROLINE: Yes.

   [_A silence._

Did Owen ever say anything to you about that night, Jill?

JILL (_very gently_): I think it was I who said something to him. Not
anything that you would have minded, though.

CAROLINE (_with an effort_): Do you want me to tell you?

JILL (_as before_): No. I didn't want Owen to tell me, either.

CAROLINE: I made him promise that he'd forget--absolutely. Though there
wasn't anything real to forget, Jill. It was only that--I lost my way,
for a few minutes, between reality and pretence.

JILL: One does.

CAROLINE: Owen didn't. Not really. I--I am glad he didn't, Jill.

   [_A silence. Then_ CAROLINE _resumes in a more natural voice_:

Being ill has made it all seem so long ago. I believe I was rather
delirious that night.

JILL: Perhaps.

CAROLINE (_vehemently_): I know I was talking nonsense part of the time.
I was hardly conscious of what I said. I am so thankful I can't
remember.

JILL: Why?

CAROLINE: Well, just think of what even one's conscious thoughts are
like, sometimes!

JILL: You're quite right there. I'm often thankful, as I was saying to
Freddie just now, that women nowadays have so many things to think of
besides their emotions.

CAROLINE: Did you say that to _Freddie_?

JILL: Yes.

CAROLINE: You said a thing like that to Freddie, at eleven o'clock in
the morning?

JILL: Yes.

CAROLINE: What did he say?

JILL: Oh, that the hand that rocks the cradle rules the world, or
something. That's what he _meant_, anyway.

CAROLINE: Jill, you ought to remember that Freddie can't be expected to
see things in exactly the same light that you do.

JILL: Of course not. He's so much older.

CAROLINE: Yes, I expect that's it.

JILL: In fact, I was telling him so this morning.

CAROLINE: That as well!

JILL: Yes.

CAROLINE: And after he stayed away from the mill on purpose to see the
last of you and Owen!

JILL: That's a very nice idea--but I expect he _really_ stayed at home
because it was your first day downstairs.

CAROLINE (_wistfully_): He hasn't said so, has he?

   [JILL _is silent, then suddenly speaks_.

JILL: Caroline darling, do you mind if I ask you a fearfully indiscreet
question?

CAROLINE: No--in fact, I should like it.

JILL: I quite agree that indiscreet questions are the only ones really
worth asking. It's this: You do care for Freddie, don't you? I mean
fundamentally?

CAROLINE (_thoughtfully_): Yes. (_Gaining in assurance_) Yes, I do. It
may seem odd--in fact, I often think it is--but I do.

JILL: I wonder why?

CAROLINE: After a woman has lived with a man for years, day in and day
out, and shared his home, and his children, and his interests, she's
bound to end either by hating him, or else by being fond of him. I don't
hate Freddie.

JILL: And he's fond of you, too.

CAROLINE (_sighing_): I know. Husbands nearly always are fond of their
wives--especially those that live in the country and don't see anyone
else. But they never show it.

JILL: It's a pity.

CAROLINE: I expect I'm a fool, to feel that it matters.

JILL (_suddenly springing to her feet_): No, you're not. You're
just--romantic, and imaginative, and sentimental. So are most women. And
they go on and on, waging a perpetual conflict between real life and the
life of their secret dreams.

CAROLINE: Jill!

JILL: Yes. I'm getting it clear now--don't stop me. It isn't only you,
it's me as well, and most other women, I expect. We can't learn to be
content with--just glimpses of the Alhambra by moonlight. We want it
there always, and all the time. And when we know it's not there, instead
of facing the fact, we screw up our eyes and try to see it still in--in
the outline of the chicken-house.

CAROLINE: Just--pretending?

JILL (_assenting_): Just pretending. The schoolgirl's day-dream, in
which she's her own heroine all the time.

CAROLINE: But one doesn't go on being a schoolgirl all one's life.

JILL: Are you quite sure of that?

   [_A silence--and then_ JILL _suddenly alters her tone and
   becomes matter-of-fact again_.

After all, personal relations are _not_ everything. Women do know that
nowadays.

CAROLINE: We may know it. But do we feel it?

JILL: We're learning to. To face facts--make the best of things as they
are--accept life as it really is----

   [_As she speaks_, EMMA _enters_.

EMMA: If you please, madam, the fish is here.

JILL: That's exactly what I meant! The fish! It's all part of life----

CAROLINE (_harassed_): _Oui, oui--mais pas maintenant._ What has he
brought, Emma?

EMMA: Soles, madam, and a piece of turbot.

CAROLINE: Turbot, Emma?

EMMA: Cook don't feel sure of the turbot, madam. She says soles are
safer.

CAROLINE: Then two small soles, please, Emma.

EMMA: Very good, madam. (_Exit._)

   [CAROLINE _leans back again, tired_.

JILL: You're tired. It's more than time we were off. I shall go and
hurry up Owen.

CAROLINE: No, no, don't.

JILL: He'll come in and tell us as soon as the car's ready.

   [_A pause._

CAROLINE: Of course, darling, I don't want you to tell me anything you
don't _want_ to tell me.

JILL: Don't you?

CAROLINE: Well, of course----

   [_They both laugh._

Is it that you can't make up your mind?

JILL: I'm always making it up. First one way and then the other. That's
what I hate.

CAROLINE: I daresay Owen doesn't enjoy it much, either.

JILL: You're quite right; he doesn't. I often think I shall lose him
altogether.

CAROLINE: Oh, Jill, do you really?

JILL: No.

CAROLINE: You're in love with him, Jill?

   [JILL _signs assent_.

Doesn't that simplify things?

JILL: I'm afraid it doesn't. You see, I do try to face facts, and I know
that, once the glamour has gone, it won't come back again.

CAROLINE: And it goes, with domestic life.

JILL: Owen's an only son--he'll have to live at that place of theirs in
Wales--do county business--look after the estate--his wife will have to
pay calls--and run the Women's Institute--and think about the
servants--and talk about the garden.

CAROLINE: Yes, yes--all that's true.

JILL: In a couple of years' time, Owen will be going to sleep over his
newspaper every evening and----(_Breaks off._) I didn't mean that.

CAROLINE: Yes, you did. It doesn't matter. Jill, you're wrong.

JILL: Wrong?

CAROLINE: You're afraid that you and Owen will grow like Freddie and me.
Don't interrupt me--it's true. But you're wrong--absolutely wrong. You
said just now that women were always pretending. Don't you see that if
you can say that, and realise it, it won't be true about you? _You're_
not going to live in a make-believe world, that'll never, never square
with everyday life. You'll know your day-dreams for what they are--the
schoolgirl's romance. You'll even have the courage to laugh at them.

JILL (_thoughtfully_): I've never thought of it like that. It makes a
difference. But Owen . . . ?

CAROLINE: It's the woman who makes a marriage what it is--not the man.

JILL: That's true.

CAROLINE: And then Owen--he has imagination--he's a little bit
different----

JILL: Perhaps . . .

CAROLINE (_bringing out her words with hesitation, as though struggling
with a dim remembrance_): Yes--I--I----He's the kind of man who might
know . . . what a woman was really like . . . and yet . . . love her
just the same. . . . (_She passes her hand across her eyes._) I feel
just as if I'd said all this before.

JILL: You haven't--but I'm glad you've said it now.

CAROLINE: So am I. It came to me like an inspiration.

JILL: That's because it was somebody else's problem. I was inspired,
too, if you remember, when we were discussing yours.

   [OWEN _appears at the window. He is wearing garments suitable
   for his motor drive back to London._

OWEN: Good morning, Caroline. Splendid to see you downstairs. How are
you? Really all right?

CAROLINE: Quite, thank you. I'd have come down yesterday if Jill would
have let me. You'll be gone almost at once, I suppose, and I've been
such a bad hostess.

OWEN: I hope you'll let me come here again, one day.

CAROLINE: We'd love to have you, any time you can get away. You mustn't
forget to write your name in the Visitors' Book before you go.

   [FREDDIE _appears at window_.

FREDDIE: Is Caroline there?

CAROLINE: Yes, I'm here. It's nice to be downstairs again.

FREDDIE (_comes in, carrying a bunch of roses_): Look dear--I--I've
brought you these.

CAROLINE: Freddie! (_She takes the roses._)

FREDDIE: It was Jill's idea.

JILL: Oughtn't we to be making a start, Owen?

OWEN: Yes, if you're ready. The car's O.K. now.

FREDDIE: You must sign your name in the Visitors' Book before you go.
Let me see--it ought to be in here. (_Goes to writing-table._) No. She
must have put it in the hall--or in the study. (_Goes towards the bell._
JILL _moves between him and the bell, looking at him, meaningly_.)

   [FREDDIE _turns slowly, without having rung_.

(_Going to the door_) I'll see if I can find it myself.

CAROLINE: Oh, Freddie--how good of you to think of Emma! It's only just
while we're short-handed. (_Gets up and follows him._) I believe I know
where the Visitors' Book is----

   [CAROLINE _goes out_, FREDDIE _following her_.

JILL: How do you think Caroline looks?

OWEN: Rather white, doesn't she?

JILL: I'm afraid so. Poor darling, I do hate leaving her.

OWEN (_stiffly_): If you really want to stay, and they can go on putting
you up, please don't bother about me.

JILL: Thanks, but I'm due at the office to-morrow morning.

OWEN: So that's that. By the way, I don't know if you happen to remember
that we came here partly in order that you might have an opportunity of
making up your mind.

JILL: I remember perfectly.

OWEN: I suppose I may conclude that you _have_ made it up?

JILL (_ironically_): And on what grounds are you basing your conclusion?

OWEN: Principally on the grounds that you have avoided, as far as
possible, being left alone with me for one moment in the course of the
past three days.

JILL: So you've noticed that?

OWEN: I'm not Freddie Allerton, my dear.

JILL: No. In fact, Caroline's right. You're not, really, even very
_like_ Freddie.

OWEN (_indignantly_): Did anyone ever suppose that I was?

JILL: Well--I had a general idea that most men rather resembled one
another, especially in their dealings with women.

OWEN: You were wrong--as you often are.

JILL: Caroline says it may be the saving of us that we're neither of us
afraid of the truth.

OWEN: May I ask in what respect Caroline considers us to be in need of
saving?

JILL: I don't know that I can begin explaining that just now. We ought
to be starting.

OWEN: We can't start until we've signed our names in that blasted book.
Tell me what Caroline meant.

JILL: She thinks you're different, because you've got imagination.

OWEN: Isn't that exactly what I've been trying to make you see all
along?

JILL: You _have_ made me see it. Only a man with imagination could have
fallen a victim to what you once described as propinquity quite as
rapidly as you did on the night of the strike. _Or_ have made quite such
a mess of it.

OWEN: Are you more angry because I _did_ fall a victim, or because I
made a mess of it?

   [_They look at one another, and both burst out laughing._

JILL: I'm really angry for the oldest and most primitive reason in the
whole world. I never realised before that I was capable of being
jealous.

OWEN: Do you know that's almost the nicest thing you've ever said to me?

JILL: Oh, I could do much better than that, Owen. If you still want me
to, that is.

   [_They look at one another in silence._

OWEN (_gravely_): I _want_ you to say that you'll _marry_ me. I know
you're afraid (_looking round the room_) of all _this_. Well, so am I.

JILL: You too?

OWEN: Of course. Don't you think that's going to be a safeguard?

JILL: It'll help.

OWEN (_suddenly practical_): We ought to arrange to spend half a year,
at least, away from home. Away from one another, in fact.

JILL: Owen, that's really splendid of you.

OWEN: It is, isn't it?

JILL: What shall I promise in return? That I'll never talk to you about
the servants?

OWEN: That you'll never let me go to sleep after dinner over the
newspaper.

JILL: No! I'll make it worth your while to keep awake. (_Gravely_) And
I'm not going to let my whole life hinge on personal relationships,
Owen. I'm going to keep lots of outside interests when I marry.

OWEN: Right! Then it _is_ settled that we're to give marriage a trial?

JILL: It's a risk--but at least we shall be taking it with our eyes
open. And----

OWEN: And what, sweetheart?

JILL: The night of the strike showed me that--I can't face the
alternative.

OWEN: What alternative?

JILL: The only alternative there _is_ when one's dealing with a man who
has imagination--watching him fall in love with somebody else.

OWEN: Never! (_He takes her in his arms._) You and I, my sweet, are
_not_ Freddie and Caroline. We're different--we'll always be different.

JILL: I wonder just how many lovers have said that. I wonder . . . Oh,
well--Owen!

   [_They kiss._

FREDDIE (_off_): They can easily use my fountain pen, dear.

   [OWEN _and_ JILL _exeunt to porch_. FREDDIE _and_ CAROLINE,
   _with Visitors' Book and pen, enter_.

Hello, where have they got to?

   [OWEN _and_ JILL _re-enter_.

Ah, there you are. I was wondering where you'd got to.

JILL: Well, I'm afraid we ought to start, oughtn't we, Owen?

OWEN: If you're ready . . .

FREDDIE: Let me give you a hand with these bags.

OWEN: No, no. . . . (_Picks up a suit-case._)

   [FREDDIE _exits with the other_.

JILL: Don't come out, Caroline. Really you mustn't. I've so loved being
with you, darling. Good-bye.

OWEN: Thanks most awfully. It has been good of you. Good-bye.

   [_He shakes hands with_ CAROLINE.

CAROLINE: Mind you come again.

   [OWEN _exits_.

JILL: Caroline, I think it's going to be all right!

CAROLINE: Darling! (_Kisses her._)

   [JILL _exits_.

   CAROLINE _stands looking after her, then slowly turns back into
   the room again, and stands a moment, rather desolately, looking
   round. She goes to the sofa, and sits down again, resuming her
   knitting. The next moment_ FREDDIE--_minus the
   suit-cases--fusses in at the window. He is followed by_ JILL
   _and_ OWEN.

FREDDIE: They very nearly went off without signing their names in the
book after all. Come on, Jill, write your name. Here's the
blotting-paper.

   [CAROLINE _starts up_.

JILL (_signing_): There!

FREDDIE: Lucky thing I remembered. Now, Owen----

   [OWEN _signs_.


JILL (_to_ CAROLINE): You see--life again! Always the anti-climax--I
will _not_ say good-bye all over again.

   [_Blows her a kiss and exit by window, followed by_ FREDDIE.

   OWEN _lingers behind, with_ CAROLINE.

OWEN: Has she told you?

CAROLINE: She said it was--going to be all right.

OWEN: I feel that too. You know, Caroline, it's all thanks to you.

CAROLINE: Nonsense.

OWEN: But it isn't--and, besides, something you said to her this morning
helped her to make up her mind.

CAROLINE: Yes, Jill and I agreed this morning how wonderfully easy it is
to throw light on the problems of other people.

OWEN: Did she also throw light on yours?

CAROLINE: I think so. At least, she made me realise that if one hasn't
the courage to rebel, it's wiser to face life as it is, and accept it,
than to try and reconcile it with--day-dreams.

OWEN (_impulsively_): Caroline--forgive me--you said, "If one hasn't the
courage to rebel." Are you sure you haven't the courage?

CAROLINE: Quite, quite sure. Years ago, perhaps--but things
accumulate--responsibilities--obligations that one undertakes----(_She
shakes her head._) It's life, isn't it? But it will be different for you
and Jill. You're starting differently.

   [_The engine of the car is started outside._

You must go. (_She gives him her hand._) Good-bye, Owen. The best of
luck!

OWEN: Good-bye, Caroline.

   [_He looks at her for a moment, then lifts her hand to his lips
   and exits._

   CAROLINE _stands looking after him. Her eyes are dazed, as
   though some thought eluded her. She relinquishes it, rouses
   herself and goes to her old place on the sofa, taking up her
   knitting on the way._

   FREDDIE _returns and starts the gramophone with "When we are
   married." After a few bars_, CAROLINE _says with a smile_:

CAROLINE: I still have a little headache, Freddie.

FREDDIE: I'm sorry, dear. (_Stops gramophone._)

   [EMMA _enters with the newspaper on a tray, which she silently
   hands to_ FREDDIE. _He takes it with a sound of satisfaction,
   and tears off the wrapper. Then he, too, subsides into the
   chair opposite to_ CAROLINE'S. _He unfolds the paper and begins
   to read._

   _Exit_ EMMA.

   _A pauses then_ CAROLINE _speaks_:

CAROLINE: Anything in the paper, Freddie?

FREDDIE: Nothing, as far as I can see. This dam' Government----

   [_Another pause, then_ FREDDIE _lowers the paper and looks
   across at_ CAROLINE.

(_Slowly_) I've been thinking--if you'd care about it, dear, we might
perhaps take a trip abroad in the spring. I daresay a change would do
you good.

CAROLINE (_starting into life_): Freddie!

FREDDIE (_with an obvious effort_): Yes. What about that place you and
Jill are so keen about? We might take a look at that. Wasn't it the
Eiffel Tower by moonlight . . . ?


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[To See Ourselves, by E. M. Delafield]
